Have you ever experienced the phenomena of walking through life seeing and experiencing things as thought it was dark? All the time? I believe darkness lives here on earth, but through Christ we have light. This is not about seeing with our physical eyes but walking around blind to the spiritual presence of Christ? He walks with us...he knows all, but yet we reject him from becoming more than a seasonal or weekly acquaintance.
About a year ago, I had begun experiencing strong desires for me to take on certain tasks I believed God had given to me. I know this sounds weird, but I was receiving clear directions. For the longest, I ignored them, thinking they were irrational and unrealistic. Ha! Then I would get the urge again and it would pair with a sign. Phenomenally, God kept nudging me. For example, through a bible study our group came across Ephesians 2:8-10.
“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith- and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God- not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” Ephesians 2:8-10
And as most studies go, there were some discussion questions – we went through those together as a group and at the very end of the discussion questions there was one take away, one task that said “Make Art.”
Well, if you know anything about me, you know I work in a creative space. These directions challenged me to make something from this. I kept thinking about this, it kept resurfacing in my thoughts. During the study I took time to copy the verses and the directions in my notes app. Through the next several weeks, my notes app would gently remind me of this one entry by push notification! Why this one?! I type in at least 10 notes per week in my notes app so this seemed supernatural to me.
Finally one day, after walking into my house, I noticed the artwork on the wall. I had, at the time, one room that included artwork from scripture. And the directions came to me clearly, but they were big. My directions were to remove the artwork from the walls in my home and put up artwork that included scripture.
For me, this seemed all the way outside of my comfort zone. Mostly because I had a lot of artwork on the walls in the house and because I knew there would be a financial investment that I would have to talk about with my husband. So, I sat on it. I did nothing for about 3 weeks, walking past the corridors and spaces where art work hung thinking about my instructions.
Finally, after church one Sunday, I found the nerve to talk to my husband about it. I told him I felt like God was telling me to switch out the art work in the house and put up scripture. He said “well….ok, do it.” I was shocked by the response, I stammered with a come back and said “well it’s going to cost us some money.” He said “yea, I’m sure it will.” And that ended the conversation.
The following weekend, I went to hobby lobby and when I walked in they were having a 50% off sale on all their canvas artwork.
I know right.
So, I switched out the majority of the artwork in my house for scripture. And it has truly brought a calm to my soul. More though, it was the beginning of God pushing me towards his scripture.
You see, at the time, I wasn’t digging into the Word the way I should have. Sundays were our church and bible study time, so I read through the scripture during group readings…but the word had not become light for me yet.
I know now that this experience was purposeful. The artwork was and still is a nice addition to my home, but it is was also the very first step in immersing myself in the Word. I didn’t even know it at the time, but it slowly and quietly prompted me to read more of the Word. My personal search for God has been so moving, I truly feel as though I am or was walking through life with my eyes closed - and through my search Christ began leading me...whispering directions... “Turn Left,”...”Watch for Detours, they will distract you...it’s coming soon”...”Stop and Pray. Rest. Be still. We will begin walking again soon.” Seeking him through his Word and prayer, asking for guidance...it actually works! The road for me sometimes seems lonely, as if as if I left a a big party with drinks, laughter and the hustle of fulfilling personal desires to seek a light in a dark room. This light is true, and I know it is righteous, but this path seems odd. Peeking in, my curiosity is leading me, but the room is so dark that I cannot see without guidance.
“I gain understanding from your precepts; therefore I hate every wrong path. Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.” Psalms 119:104-105
His words illuminate off the page like never before. I can’t describe how fitting this verse is. The Bible speaks truth.